I just realized I didn’t crash after Mother’s Day. It has been my experience since the beginning of my journey to crash a few days after the original holiday or whatever it was.
Today is day three and I just realized it didn’t happen this time. Why? Maybe it is because it wasn’t a day wrapped all up in Ronnie. Whatever the reason I am happy.
Leading up to it was okay. The actual day went well. I spent the day with family. I, of course, thought of Ronnie, but it was okay.
He sent me a sign with music. That made me happy. I spoke of him sometimes throughout the day. I didn’t cry. Like they (there they are again, just who are they?) If you can talk about it without crying it is a sign of healing.
The kids kept me entertained. God Love them.
I missed my Mom. But that was okay. And here it is, third day after. If anything I had a bit more energy.
Now next in line is Memorial Day. Now that day is wrapped up in Ronnie. It has always, from the start, been a rough one. Ronnie being a veteran, the parade, and the bar b que. All Ronnie. I will wait to see how that one goes.
For the time being I will be grateful for this time. Still a sign of healing.
I hope everyone had a good day.
This will be a short one. Don’t want to dwell on it. Before you know it I will make myself cry.
As always, be kind.
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